The YarnTotingBlog

A train of thought several nights back right at bed time had me up late starting this project instead of going to sleep. I can’t explain it. I was simply overcome with the desire to crochet bobbles. This pattern is so simple. That is why this kills me. Hours upon hours have gone into this and all I have to show for it is a couple of hours work. First it was my tension. It was pain to crochet and the results were not up to par with what I was seeing elsewhere and definitely not worth all the work. After sleeping on it I decided to try again from the beginning, consciously making every effort to loosen up and I decided to make it smaller. Since then it’s been enjoyable to work on and my bobbles actually bobble. I have not had to wrestle with any stitches and I’m caring about it rather than wanting to forget about it. That’s only half of it though. I seem to have forgotten how to count. We’re not even talking big numbers here. Eleven is the largest but my biggest problem appears to be counting to three. I think I’m concentrating and being careful and yet stitches will fall off, I’ll catch myself doing the wrong stitch or the right stitch wrong, or I’ll lose my tension, get my hand tangled in the yarn or even better, get my entire self tangled in the yarn (don’t ask, especially not how many times). I’ve had to frog and rework this thing so many times I could have been finished by now. I don’t know what my deal is as this is quite a recent thing. Am I not getting enough sleep? Too much stress? Whatever it is, this isn’t helping. I’m staying up working on it instead of getting to bed at a reasonable hour. If I try to go to bed, it’s incomplete existence haunts me and keeps me from sleep. If I can just get to the end of this first skein I will take a break; sleep a little. I’m not touching anything even slightly challenging until whatever my problem is has been taken care of.

Maybe this is simply a providential lesson in tolerance, patience and perseverance. Or possibly priorities (ie. sleep, not crochet).